[you purr your gratitude into his shoulder and think about how amazingly kind he is -- okay, he yells a lot and that's scary, but also he should be eating your face off right now and instead he's shooshing you, like he can just forgive the horrible thing you've done to him, and that makes you feel just terrible for him. it's pitiable, isn't it? being a troll who gives so much to others, knowing how badly that will get him hurt.]